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Warning!!! Writer on senti mode again!!!! :)

I should be happy I got to celebrate another Christmas under a roof, my temporary home despite of the calamity that struck our place (along with others').

Yes, there's really a lot to be thankful for before and after Ondoy. Will not enumerate them right now for I might miss something that may be important. Too bad, I didn't really took time out to write them down as they come/occur.

And sorry if I can't focus on them right now for I'm feeling senti again...I'm glad I'm all alone here at home right now so I can bask on this loneliness and get to think about things. Though I wasn't able to hold back tears while having my brunch and my tita's still around then. Good thing she didn't see me. What made me cry? Well, I was on the verge since last night. But earlier, after learning that my tita liked/loved my simple gift, and some people close to me crossed my mind, I couldn't stop tears from falling. Took me around 5 minutes to relax and go back to the present world. :)

This year's another tough year for me, especially emotionally. I'm getting scared that I'm giving justice to what my other tita said some time ago about my being emotionally unstable. :( It hurts hearing that from someone so close to me. It really hurt.

I wanna be strong and keep going but it's really hard for me. I'm ashamed to admit that I'm lost now. I've been so stubborn and unfocused.

It's my fault. Can't blame anyone else but me. I really should learn from this.

Merry Christmas to me.