Sunday, April 20, 2008
I've Dreamed A Dream
I don't intend to sing this great song...hehehe
I just wanna talk about dreaming.
I just wanna talk about dreaming.
I often hear from a lot of famous and successful people how they've reached their dreams. And I wondered how I couldn't get mine.
This thing I'm about to write is something that only 2 or 3 people are aware of. Though I'm not sure if they would be able to recall when asked what Michelle Gatchalian's real dream is.
And I'm ready now to share it here. It's a giveaway, really, for me to dream to have my own family. How to achieve it is kinda difficult for me. Right now, I'm not sure if I should hold onto it or just let things be.
Anyways, hearing from a lot of people about how to achieve dreams confuse me a lot of times. It also made me realize that I haven't really been a dreamer. I just really hope it's never too late for me to dream more.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Late Bloomer
It's only now that I'm enjoying doing DVD marathon.
It has been years already that I've contented myself with just a cd player/radio in my room, no TV, much less a dvd player. I love movies but I'm not the type who can go to the movies weekly. For years, I've waited for the good movies to be shown in HBO or Star Movies channels in cable.
Not until lately when I finally decided to get myself a portable dvd player. Since then, I've been a 'suki' of St. Francis... *wink* *wink* hehehe.
Now I'm more confined in my room than ever. Hehehe...Don't be surprised if I become a hermit or really turn into spinster (LOL).
I'm enjoying my new 'diversion'. I wonder how long will this last. c",)
Friday, April 04, 2008
Then and Now
Photos during almost the same time of 2005 & 2008. See how these kids have grown!
Elaine, the first graduate (2005)
Lerissa and Eliezer (with their Lola & Mom) - 2005
Izer - at home after Elaine's graduation (2005)
and now, look at them! *sigh*
Elaine, Lerissa, and Eliezer - Mar 27, 2008
Thursday, April 03, 2008
yes, i could be so sensitive...
I've noticed that there are still some having a hard time 'reading' me. It could be that they are finding it difficult to relate with me. Can't really blame them for I really was keeping to myself lately.
Admittedly, I have myself to blame feeling this way: wondering how is it that when one person can't make it, the event or 'spur-of-the-moment' would be called-off....but, when i'm the one who can't be available, it will push thru as planned...
Sigh...I think I'm once again in this phase of "nagpapaimportante"...
I know that I could've been the only one who have thought or thinking of this happening. I hope I won't be judged nor rejected. I know I'm not being a good friend lately to almost everyone, but, I hope they won't forget about me. I may be 'invisible', but, I'm still here...I may seem 'uncaring' but, I'm just staying in the sidelines. Trying to be different from what I usually do, always asking about how things are to each one.
This is one reason why it seemed I'm being 'quiet': I wanna know how it feels when people would really 'look' or 'search' or 'ask' for my company as if they really want to be with me...that they really wanna share their time and stories with me. Simply put, right now, it's like 'nagpapaimportante' nga talaga...
So selfish, no? Well, this could be just a phase...maybe...maybe not...
I just hope I'm still good when this would result to doomsday...
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
how am i?
matagal ko na ring di nakapag-post dito. naging busy sa iba kong blogs at bagong pinagkakaabalahan (playing with my new camera and dvd-marathon)...
etong nakaraan na Holy Week, nasa bahay lang ako...nanahimik...natulog. Syempre, may kasamang pagtitika at pagmumuni-muni sa aking buhay.
i thought of changing...hoping i can do it whole-heartedly (kung pwede nga, effortless din). i haven't been a good person lately. i kept to myself more than before, subconciously building a wall around me...there are times i'm glad i did, there are times it made things harder.
anyways, let me fasttrack to latest events...it's only last night that i got to watch the movie "in pursuit of happYness" starring will smith and his son. the effect it gave me was that it made me think of my brother and his son (kids). how i wished my bro could be more like will's character, chris gardner. but, of course, the saying 'to each his own' would come in. i've accepted that fact. that's why i said how i wished it could be that way...
about me, last friday night, after watching "The Secret" movie premiere, had me thinking of how i view life, specifically mine. admittedly, i'm more of a negative, cynic, paranoid person. though i'm trying to be accepting of things that are happening in my life, i'm really a pessimist. the movie 'secret' is attempting to make me change this attitude of mine. i'm welcoming it, i just hope i can bear it...honestly, the movie gave me hope, especially with the status of my so-called 'lovelife' (which is still non-existent by the way).
(pls. excuse this kind of post, improper format of upper and lower cases...i'm just in a hurry of posting this since i'm here at work)
