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This is an excerpt from my letter yesterday, Christmas Day, to no-one-in-particular...could be to myself... c",)

xxx

...Oh well, I’m a less senti this year (surprisingly). Despite no celebration today, I haven’t cried yet. I’m so thankful for my nephew and nieces who have been so sweet to me in their own little ways. I got to talk/chat for quite a long period to Eliezer last night over the phone. He’s so cute even if I can’t see his face. He’s telling me about his Pokemon/Pikachu toys. I was happy with myself that I got him to talk to me for he was always avoiding me before. Finally, we had a connection. And as usual, his ate Lerissa, ever since, has always been sweet to me. I can feel she misses me and wants me around. Their ate Elaine got to text earlier today. Wasn’t able to talk to her last night for she was asleep. She asked me how I am and if I would be with them in New Year’s eve (which has been a tradition for me, too). I replied, ‘Pwede. Do you want me to?’. She said, ‘syempre’. These things mean so much to me.

It’s still a long day and still not sure how to spend it. So far, looks like I’ll be in my room most of the time. Daydreaming. Wishing. Praying. Hoping. Waiting. And of course, sleeping.

Merry Christmas to me. ...

So see...I'm still the sentimental fool you know. ;)

I don't want to end the year without a post for December in this blog.

Though I honestly, don't know what to say nor how to describe my past days, I still wanna post here...even if it's a nonsense entry (what's new, right?) LOL

I was a little surprised the past 2 days when I didn't cry...I was kinda expecting I would especially when I realized I'll be spending Christmas day practically alone...

I guess, I am that numb already.

Is my heart slowly turning into a stone? For it's somehow easier for me to disregard others suggestions/recommendations/comments on how I should feel about something.

Don't be misled. I am still the "emotional/sentimental/sensitive" me...

All I'm saying here is that it seems like I have developed my ability of ignoring things/people.

Good or bad, deadma na lang muna ako..... :-|